There’s a Greek god most people haven’t heard about. He’s the brother to Chronos (yeah, that guy). His name is Kairos and he’s the god of moments of time. Kairos has been looking out for me this year as I’ve experienced so many great and teaching moments this year. While I’ve been looking back a lot lately, and I’m sure you’re all sick of it, I am now ready to look forward. This post is my letter to my self, my note to myself about 2012 and what 2013 will hold for me.
2013 is going to be one of those years. You’re not going to have the best year of your life. Sorry, that isn’t going to happen. But you might have the best year of your life that you’ve had so far. That is a definite possibility!
2012 taught you so many things. Whom to trust, whom to not trust. What you’re good at (research, duh!) and what you’re not (the weird rules involved in RAing). It brought you to Washington D.C., to Aberystwyth, to London, Glasgow, Edinburgh, York and a few places in between. It took you to a few of your new absolute favorite places (FDR Memorial, Delaware coast, Promenade in Aber). It showed you love, loss and just how to be yourself.
With such a year, how is 2013 suppose to follow? Easy, it will. You will have the same moments of time, some great, some bone-crushingly sad, just maybe in different combinations with different situations.
You will graduate from university in 2013. Twenty years of education, 14 years of formal education later and you will have a Bachelor’s of Arts to show for it. And a whole lot of random knowledge (anyone care to know what the different between OSA and CSA is?) will leave your head but some of it will stay. You can win trivia with the random knowledge you now have!
Graduating from university is a huge step. But in some ways, it will be nothing new for you. In fact, I predict now, that you will not feel like a college graduate and you won’t feel any different until you are moving into your apartment for graduate school. Part of that is because you aren’t participating in a commencement ceremony (who wants to wear those ridiculous robes outside in May in Wisconsin anyway?!). And part of that is because college has always just been the next step. It’s not the end and it sure as hell isn’t the beginning. Still, take a moment to say “WOOHOO!” Celebrate with your friends – all of them, Welsh, American, Greek, British, German, French and Basque. Turn in your dissertation and proceed to party. But not too hard!
You’re going to to travel some more. You’re not exactly sure where yet, though you have an idea. Let the wind carry you wherever it wills. You have a grounded soul that knows when it needs to be moved and when it doesn’t.
Graduate school – let that happen when it happens. You’ll decide when you’re good and ready, sometime in 2013.
I could go on for ages about what I want you to do, darling, but that’s a little counter-productive. So I want to give you one more commandment for your 2013: Live. Dance in the hallway to cheesy music you don’t know the lyrics to; Sing along off-key when cooking questionable combinations of food; Hug everyone you can; Argue your way in and out of an argument or two; Try new foods; Challenge yourself; Let yourself relax; Surround yourself with the best, the brighest and the ones who LOVE you; Let life define itself. Let life define you.
Don’t forget those “spots of time” or those moments of time. You’ll remember them for the rest of your life if you do it right.
And never let anyone – professor, friend, lover, enemy, ANYONE – tell you that you are not worth it. You are one hell of a person and anyone who doesn’t see that doesn’t deserve your tears, money or time. End of the story.
Keep smiling, keep living and keep dreaming darling. 2013 is ready for you. Now it’s time for you to be ready for it.